As promised I aim to think something positive, my thought for tonight is:

'Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face'

I've had an interesting and exhausting day.

My mum took me into work, it took me a full hour to get myself ready, hair, make up, smart attire etc so that they would all believe that everything was fine.

My trainer seemed very stressed and now I'm worried about him but my assisstant feels its not to do with the pressure but with personal reasons. I'm worried that I have caused these stresses on his personal life because I'm not there to do my job and he is taking on too much. This is stressing him out which is affecting his relatioship.

I feel very guilty but at the same time I know its best that I am not there because the pain is so bad, it feels like an electric jolt up my leg with every footstep.

I had to go to Bluewater to get money out for my middle son's birthday tomorrow, but it is very big and it was just too much, even for me who loves shopping.

I've tried to rest tonight but I am thinking too much and thats not good.

Well as have busy day ahead I'm off now.

Emja xxx